I don't know, i'm just so confused.

All I know is that, I don't like who I am right now. I hate my vulnerability, I hate my need to rely on people, I hate my insecurities, I hate it all.

I want to love myself.

But I can't love myself if I stay this way forever. I need to change, I need to evolve.

I want to be prettier, I want to carry myself better. I wish I wasn't so clumsy. I need to loose weight. I need to change the way I dress. I need to put myself out there more. I need to express myself better. I need to inject confidence in my veins, and shoot glitter up my spine. I need to blow stardust into my eyes and I need to add sunshine to my smile. I need to paint elegance on my legs and I need to stir eloquence into my speech.

I need to be happy with the way I am. Because i'm not.I don't like this version of me. She irks me. She drives me up the walls. I hate her.

I just... I don't know. Someone help me :/