I don't even know why i care.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Here's the thing, plain as fucking day. You can't expect me to act grown up if you don't give me opportunities to grow up, but your heads are too far up your asses for you to understand that.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
I should've proudly claimed,
that my heads to blame,
for my hearts mistakes.
Now i'm staring at the mess I made.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Save some face, you know you've only got one.
Change your way's, while your young.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
You make me feel so fucking stupid sometimes.
Joan Jett and The Black Hearts
I love Joan Jett, she's so amazing. One of those few amaaazing women who can sing,' do you wanna touch me there?' and still sound sort of... classy. lol.
You don't let me run away from you,
you don't let me twist and turn the truth,
it feels as if i'm naked while your standing in the room
Monday, October 18, 2010
Everyone is fast asleep. Except me, of course. I feel their dreams swirl around me gracefully. I look out into the inked night and it seems like time has stopped. It is the darkest time of night, its so dark, its purer than day. I close my eyes and feel the soft breeze brush past my skin and run his soft hands through my hair. Nothing matters, not school, not friends, not affairs of the heart. Nothing.
I wish I could live here forever
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Everything I do brings me back to you
I'm weird.
I'm strange.
I've lost it.
Isn't that what everyone tells me? When will someone tell me,' sweetheart, you're weird, but I love it, and i love you'
Is that ever gonna happen?
No?
Sigh.
Should've known
You're a bitch, you know that?
I THROW MY SKITTLES IN THE AIR SOMETIMES, SINGIN AAYYYOOOO, LOOK A RAAINNBBOOOWWW.
There is a certain decorum to maintain with a person. There are always lines you shouldn't cross. No matter how close or distant you are, you should always watch the lines. Just because she's a good friend of yours doesn't mean that you can call her 'mooti' all the time. She has issues with her weight, that doesn't mean its open ground for you go publicize and make fun of her. Just because she doesn't say anything, doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. Who are you to talk like that? Just because she doesn't say anything, doesn't mean you can make disparaging remarks about how her arms resemble meat loaf. Do you think you're being funny or extremely smart by saying so?
You aren't. All your comments, all your remarks detract what people think of you, not her.
Learn your limit's, sweetheart.
Friday, October 15, 2010
There's a breeze thats blowing past my door, and its bringing change like I have never known before
There are those who think i am strange, they would box me up and tell me to change. But you hold me close and softly say that you wouldn't have me any other way.
Please don't blame yourself,
You're not by yourself,
I've been right here all along.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
I'm losing you. I can feel it. I can feel you slipping out of my fingers like sand. The harder I try to hold on, the faster you slip away. Don't do this to me. Don't leave me. Not yet.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
I hope I have the old you back in November, the sweet you. I miss that you.
And I've tried to find happiness in a bigger TV, a car and a watch. I've tried to find happiness in power over others and the respect of the people around me. And I appreciate your patience, while you stand here, right in front of me.
Waiting for me to come to my senses.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
I've stopped trying, its too much to expect out of you.
Monday, October 11, 2010
' I know that its probably just me distorting things out of a hope that refuses to die'
I wanna dance around and sing love songs really loud but GOD that'll make me so sad.
Met naz today for just a teeny weeny bit before heading over to The Project Uniform presentation. It was really nice to see Nazie Wazie, he's a sweetheart :D And he listened to me blabber on about my problems when he just came out of his first O level paper :)
The Project Uniform presentation was... :O Its so amazing! I really love the concept! Its so amazing, I'd LOVE to join them, in december? that'd be so amazing :D
But for now, I'm gonna work on getting our school to agree to do this every Monday and Friday. It'd be so amazing, it'd revolutionize everything :)
If you guys would like to see what i'm talking about, please check out: http://www.theuniformproject.com/year1/ its amazing, and sheena is a brilliant human being, i'm so glad i got to meet her :)
I will write you a song, thats how you'll know that my love is still strong
I don't know how to make lots of money
I got debts that I'm trying to pay
I can't buy you nice things, like big diamond rings
But that don't mean much anyway
I can't give you the house you've been dreaming
If I could I would build it alone
I'd be out there all day, just hammering away
Make us a place of our own
I will write you a song
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong
I will write you a song
And you'll know from this song that I just can't go on without you
I don't know that I'd make a good soldier
I don't believe in being violent and cruel
I don't know how to fight, but I'll draw blood tonight
If somebody tries hurting you
I will write you a song
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong
I will write you a song
And you'll know from this song that I just can't go on without you
Now that it's out on the table (it's out on the table)
Both of us knew all along (knew all along)
I've got your loving and you've got my song
I don't know how to make lots of money
I don't know all the right things to do
I can't say where we'll go, but the one thing I know
Is how to be a good man to you
Until I die that's what I'll do
I will write you a song
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong
I will write you a song
And you'll know from this song that I just can't go on without
I will write you a song (I will write you a song)
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong (love is still strong)
I will write you a song
And you know from this song that I just can't go on without you
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Heaven is overrated
look at me, all indianized :D
I LOVE THE FESTIVE SEASON!
A Public Service Announcement.
To all the people who're putting up pictures of themselves with bottles of alcohol on facebook:
YOU ARE NOT COOL. In fact, you're just confirming your un-coolness by doing so. You could probably only handle like 2 shots, and then you'd be done for the night. Please stop embarrassing yourself further by doing so. Also, to regain whatever's left of your dignity, you should take down the photo's that started all this nonsense.
Dear John Winston Ono Lennon,
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Its your 70th birthday today, and I spent it like I always do, listening to your smooth voice travel through the speakers and melt like butter in my ears. Listening to your songs, I realized once again how much you really mean to me, how much all 4 of The Beatles really mean to me.
You taught me lessons that i'll never forget, you comforted me when there was no one else. It always seems like no matter what problem I have, you've written a song for me.
You passed long before I was born, and even though I never got to see you, never got to touch you, hug you, even though I never got to sing along with you, your influence on my life is gargantuan, and I would be lost in darkness without you.
This sounds silly, and I bet you would be laughing at me from up in heaven as well, but I feel like the connection I have with you is private and meaningful and strong. I feel like, in a way, you're not John Lennon - the world famous musician and peace activist. You're more like John Lennon - the friend, or maybe the father figure.
I guess what i'm trying to say is, you mean so much to me. The Beatles aren't just my favorite band, its so much stronger than that. I feel so much more for all of you.
You were an extraordinarily gorgeous guy, John, even though you did some regretful things in your life. You did so many more amazing, brilliant things. I just... I love you and I love everything you stand for.
Have a good birthday up there in heaven.
Love,
Bhavana
When the night is calm,
and the land is dark
and the moon is the only light we'll see.
No I won't, be afraid, no I won't be afraid,
Just as long as you stand, stand by me.
And darling, darling stand by me.
Oh now now, stand by me.
Stand by me
Stand by me.
If the sky that we look upon should tumble and fall
And the mountains crumble to the sea
I won't cry, no i won't shed a tear.
Just as long as you stand by me.
Sunrise doesn't last all morning, Cloudburst doesn't last all day
All things must pass.
I don't know why nobody told you,
How to unfold your love,
I don't know how someone controlled you,
They bought and sold you
Friday, October 8, 2010
Today was just one of those days.
The kinda day where nothing went quiet the way you wanted it to.
The kinda day, where its really hard to smile and pretend.
The kinda day where you just wish you were somewhere else.
The kinda day where the people who you thought wouldn't let you down, do.
The kinda day where you wished you were more sure of yourself.
The kinda day where you felt out of the loop, and slighty abandoned.
The kinda day where all you wanted was a comforting hug, and maybe an ,' i love you' from someone who really means it.
The kinda day where you disappoint yourself.
Yep, today was a heart cracking, brain numbing, eye brow raising, frown giving kinda day.
I hope this doesn't carry on :/
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Even though, at times, you can't express it very well, i realize that you're the one that loves me the most. You're the one that looks out for me the most. I know that, at the end of the day, if i turn to you, you'll be there.
And thats really nice to know :)
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
You know, its so easy for you to look at people and criticize them, in fact, you do it all the time. But one day, you'll meet someone, someone who will point their finger at you, and you'll be trapped. You'll be trapped in the cage of words you created for yourself.
Save yourself, whilst you still have the time. Grow a heart.
The world has made you hard, but that doesn't mean that its made me hard too. I don't see whats wrong in believing in fairy tales and happily- ever- afters. I don't see whats wrong with wishing on stars and singing songs. Why are you all in such a rush to grow up? Its going to happen anyways. It hits us all, like a train. Why're you running towards the train?
Look, i'm sorry if i'm not 'cool' enough for you, just because I still dare to believe. But frankly, I don't give a damn. Your strange looks don't affect me in the slightest.
Monday, October 4, 2010
I don't get why the legalization of gay marriage is something to be voted upon. Why does someone else's opinion matter on how someone they'll never meet lead their lives? Why should someone the people involved don't even know get a say in this?
Even the best fall down sometimes,
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme.
ughhhh wta;slfasglks.
Times like this, I hate myself, hate.my.self.
And I don't know who to call, coz there's no one.
Fuck, I really wish real life were like the movies.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
awhhh, commonwealth opening ceremony was good, made me proud to be indian :)
Saturday, October 2, 2010
You wander through the crowd,
Trying to find yourself,
Feel like a doll left on a shelf,
Will someone take you down?
Your life plays on the shadows of the wall,
You turn the light on to erase it all,
You wonder what its like to not feel worthless,
So open all the blinds, let the light in
I miss you. This new place, its nice, but its nothing like home.
Friday, October 1, 2010
Why can't you shoulder the blame? Coz both my shoulders are heavy from the weight of us both.
You're a big boy now, lets not talk about growth
Has nobody asked you how you are?
It looks like you might not last a day.
I wouldn't have made it very far,
so we'd make a good team right away
:)
