I will follow you into the dark

Out With The Old.

Thursday, December 30, 2010

2010 has been a year of numerous ups and downs for me. I don't regret any of it. I lost a friend, but gained so many more. I met people who changed the course of my life forever. I went into 2010 and came out a new girl. Now as I stand on the shore's of 2011, i'm grateful to a particular bunch of people who've been there for me through it all.

Thank you Nazie for always being there for me, for always bitching about the person i'm mad at to make me feel better, for meeting me way too early in town for breakfast, for celebrating my birthday the way you did, for letting me put guyliner on you (hahahah). You're awesome naz! ily!

Thank you Jerri for being my bestest bestest bestest girlfriend ever! Thank you for the love, kindness and understanding. Thank you for going to the nerd convention with me even though you didn't feel like it, thank you for celebrating diwali with me and my family, thank you for the amazing time's we've had at MUFE. I love you Jerriiii!

Lastly, Thank you Aidan for caring. Thank you for listening to my cry over the phone over inconsequential things, thank you for the jokes, thank you for making me laugh, thank you for your wise words, thank you for letting me in - if only just a little bit, it means a lot. Thank you for teaching me so much about myself. You're an amazing guy, and I'll never forget you.

Not only am I grateful for the friends that have always been there for me, i'm also grateful to the many new friends i've made!

Thank you Arrpita, Priya, Nikita, Anchit, Mesiha, Aswi and everyyyone else in my class for making me feel so welcomed, for helping me get over my fears, for your love and warmth. I can't wait to spend 2011 with you guys! I've only known you for 5 months, but I swear, it feels like years :)

Its been an interesting year, not what I expected, but wonderous none the less

Saturday, December 18, 2010

You say shark, I say hey man, jaws was never my scene and I don't like star wars!

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Where does everyone go when I need them the most?

Friday, December 10, 2010

Your ugly soul has begun to show on your face. Its a shame, you used to be so pretty.

Dear Diary,

Today I let the mask slip just a little and all the villains come flooding in.

While I don't expect you, as a book filled with lines, to understand my predicament, understand that I will be home late tonight. There will be blood on my costume. And the dishes will have to wait.

The biting cold swept through my hair as I sat outside, peacefully rocking in the rocking chair. So much has changed since I last sat here, and nothing will ever be the same. People who meant the world to me, now mean nothing. And people who meant nothing, now mean the world. Its strange, I though, how the world changes in just a year.

Then I thought of you. I thought of how nice it'd be to have you here with me, I thought of how much you'd enjoy the weather and the roses that grew in our garden. I thought of how amusing you'd find my family and how the smell of food that often wafted through the house would entice you.

Would you mean as much to me as you do now next year? Or will my world be tossed up into the air again?

Nothing's gonna change my world

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Words are flowing up like endless rain into a paper cup,

They slither wildly as they slip away,

across the universe

Rest In Peace John Winston Ono Lennon, you are sorely missed :(

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

And now that I think of it, it was kind of miraculous how you knew just what to say to me. Your magic enthralled me, I watched in complete reverence as you twisted and molded words with your tongue. They fit perfectly in my heart. You'd say everything I'd want to hear, you'd make me feel things I only dreamt of feeling.

But they were just words after all. I don't know why I thought them to hold so much more.

Friday, December 3, 2010

its refreshing to actually feel like i'm going to miss people when i'm gone this time.